My transcendentalism self is who I am, not what I do. It is not what I do on the outside, but it is who I am and what I define myself as on the inside.
I think my transcendentalist self is mostly what everyone else see's of me on the outside. I do not put on an act and fool people from seeing who I am on the inside. There are a few things that I do not show to everyone on the outside, though. How I act definitely changes from the people I am around. When I'm with my friends who obsess over music, I talk a lot more about the art and the emotional side of life. When I'm with my other friends who focus on humor, I am more of a listener and just have the goal of laughing and having a good time. When I am with my family, I let out all the bad because I do not really care what they think of me. I sometimes am cranky because of how everything else happens throughout the day and take it out on them. i think I take it out on them because I know they will accept me regardless. I am more comfortable around some than others. Around my coworkers, I am more mature and do not really let them see the real me. I feel that unless they are going to be friends with me, I do not need to let them know what is going on in my life. I have made friendships with some of my coworkers, which changes the way I act around them. I am more open around them because they have become friends of mine.
Finding the inner you is something that is really hard to do. It is also really hard to think about. Whitman probably found this difficult as well, although I think he definitely did a better job than I did. I understand why he kept editing it for a long time. He probably was still learning about all the changes in his life. I think that it is a really hard thing to do. Defining yourself always changes because you always change as a person, either for better or for worse.
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